Seduce Me

OH wow.

I havent posted in a while because I have been in a semi state of suicidal..not even kidding. I dont know if it is from the consistent pain i am in, or if it is because i have no money, or if it is because i miss my best friend so much.. but today was like the icing on the cake and i almost committed myself. no joke.

the only thing that has stopped me from doing this is that i am having this stupid party at my b&j friends *does not stand for blow job* house on saturday night.. my friends are really trying to cheer me up and got me a cake and everything.

anyways, a few of my friends/coworkers have pretty much done everything, and all i have to do is show up.. i am moderately concerned that no one else will go. i dont have many friends.

i am mailing my passport application out probably on monday and praying it doesnt get lost or denied. praying.

 

in other news. for the first time in a long time, im thinking about sex.

 

figure that out? earlier today i wanted to shoot myself in the face.. now i want to have sex. i think there is a problem in my brain that i really do require these prescribed meds for.

fuck my life.