Seduce Me

Yesterday I went to get my friend Lacey to hang out. I happened to be at the apartment at the same time a certain girl i used to be friends with was there picking her daughter up from her ex fiance/laceys roommate/the boy i was seeing but not seeing for a while.

this = chaos.

anyways, i guess they were fighting before i came to get lacey and i was just a bit of a catalyst and i also was apparently a good object to vent some rage at because teh two of them proceeded to (in front of their 3 year old daughter) scream and swear and tear me apart in the street.

it was aweful. it was all i could do not to break down and cry.. i just stood there.. in awe.. asking them to lower their voices so that their daughter wouldnt hear them yell and swear..

see how that works? i care enough about that child to protect her from that rage and immaturity. anyways, i think to me the worst part was that i spent some time yesterday before all this happened working on a letter for her explaining what happened and why i lied and why i deceived her.

i cant give it to her now.. which sucks as the whole thing took me a couple hours and i put a lot of thought and emotion into it..

i kind of lost my mind after everytihng went down. i didnt know what to do or how to handle all of it.
i still dont know what to do.

anyways, i spent this afternoon with one of my coworkers/friends and he took me for lunch at a place her called aunt lucys.. i think i might potentially have a heart attack from the grease level. i rarely eat, let alone eat a meal that contains that much fat.
we then sat around and decided that i deserve a second birthday party for all the shit that has gone on so we are throwing me “a very merry unbirthday” party.

yup.

ok i am going to relax. i have had way too much shit happen in 24 hours. i am waiting for the rest.