Seduce Me

 I whole heartedly believe that nothing good happens after 2am.

That is when you should pack up your shit and head home and just call it a night. Or in my case, you should have been asleep hours upon hours ago.

I am suffering this cold that wont go away. I have been trying everything I can thats free or cheap since i have no money. Sauna at the gym. Highjacking green tea from my housemate. its just not doing shit. I feel exhausted but cannot sleep.

Besides that I am turbo girl hormonal right now. I have a surefire way to tell when I am hormonal, more so than normal. I start thinking about the people (aka the person) i have wronged and I wonder what she is doing and how she is. It lasts roughly a week, and it then turns back into complete and utter rage.

Right now its at the sadness/mourning/missing stage. I really need to find something else to be sad about when my iron levels or whatever it is get all screwy. At least I dont want to goto her house or send her an email.. cause fighting those urges were always hard.

 

Anyways, I pretty much want to call her. Or go shopping. Or go tanning. Or take some nyquil. Or goto Costa Rica. or just not exist. Worst feeling on the planet.

Well alas, I really have nothing constructive to say, so i leave you with some photos.

[edit]i would have added photos but wordpress is being a pain in the ass and wont let me.[/edit]

[[edit]] figured it out[[/edit]]

 

my roommate lent me the cash for this bikini when we found it at an outlet store. $15!

  

I was bored. so waited outside in the sunshine for my housemate.

 

i cant help but miss her. and think she is pretty much the most beautiful girl i have ever met.

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OH wow.

I havent posted in a while because I have been in a semi state of suicidal..not even kidding. I dont know if it is from the consistent pain i am in, or if it is because i have no money, or if it is because i miss my best friend so much.. but today was like the icing on the cake and i almost committed myself. no joke.

the only thing that has stopped me from doing this is that i am having this stupid party at my b&j friends *does not stand for blow job* house on saturday night.. my friends are really trying to cheer me up and got me a cake and everything.

anyways, a few of my friends/coworkers have pretty much done everything, and all i have to do is show up.. i am moderately concerned that no one else will go. i dont have many friends.

i am mailing my passport application out probably on monday and praying it doesnt get lost or denied. praying.

 

in other news. for the first time in a long time, im thinking about sex.

 

figure that out? earlier today i wanted to shoot myself in the face.. now i want to have sex. i think there is a problem in my brain that i really do require these prescribed meds for.

fuck my life.

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